I have enjoyed discovering my research methodology identity. At first I enjoyed learning about research methodologies and understanding in more detail the concepts of practice based research. This perspective revealed a deeper understanding of my own relationship with research and practice. I also enjoyed organising and mapping my initial research interests, I enjoyed the challenge of taking a pragmatic brief to transform the collected data into interesting visual communication.
I do not believe I have found any of the programme ‘easy’ but I would said the ‘easiest’ section has been Practice Part One where I was drawing, illustrating, collecting, thinking. Being with old friends, the familiarity of process. It was enjoyable too.
I find it difficult to write project proposals and be self reflexive in an objective way when considering what it is I want to do within a time frame. Understanding my methodology has helped with this. I am led by discovery. I discover through making and learning, practice and research working together to create new avenues. This is why I find it difficult to pin down exactly what I want to do, as I don’t know what it is ‘exactly’ until I’m doing it.
Confusion is time consuming. I find writing down each learning task by hand in a notebook, rereading the notes and cross referencing with the website is the only way I can be confident I am working through the material accurately. And even then I am often caught out by my unreliable memory, like pebbles on the shore, it shifts and changes and order becomes chaos.
One thing I was very conscious of and concerned about when deciding to commit to this programme was devising and keeping to a routine. This routine is regular and therefore a strength. I have carved a time and space for creativity. I have found more and more I can efficiently switch from from life brain to creative brain. This is invaluable and the rest of my creative processes are built on this.
Being able to analyse what I do by understanding my methodologies has been invaluable and easily the most important thing I have learned so far. I feel stronger and more confident as a researcher and practitioner. Learning about my practice allows me to identify areas that I want to explore and why I want to explore them. Learning about the redeployment of redundant technologies has been compelling, stretching and challenging and is definitely a specific area I am exploring further.
Focussing my thinking around my place in a/the creative arena during the planned walk and subsequent pecha kucha presentation in the Creative Industries: Local Perspectives module has been inspiring. The activity allowed me to consider the space I occupy as a practitioner and to identify where my voice is, and where it should be.
I absolutely understand the importance of citing sources accurately and fairly but I need to improve my organisation, ability with and understanding of Harvard referencing.
Effective self reflection has enabled me to consider my historical practice and the barriers and blocks I have faced previously. It has also allowed me to find connections between visual practice, my feminist sympathies, and my frustrations at continually finding that my voice does not fit or is not heard. It has enabled me to start making sense of my practice as a whole, instead of separate little parts of me.
I want to draw old machines on old machines. I am making colour palettes in gridded squares of 8 by 8, after Emily Noyes Vanderpoel’s 10 by 10 grids. I am drawing computer hardware from 1978 – 1984. I have deconstructed the film Computer Chess using the female gaze. I will continue investigating redundant technologies, I am looking at acquiring a KolaPad (C64) which when used with appropriate software can be used as a drawing tablet to authentically draw in 8 bit rather than on an emulator.